Tuesday March 10/20

Mark 14:3-6

familiar story
a woman ..... unnamed ....
pushes her way in where she was not invited nor wanted
men only .... invited men only ...
and here is this woman
daring to enter
and not stay at the edge of the gathering
but push her way right into the centre
right up to the guest of honor
this man called Jesus
and she openly displays her love for this man
she offers all that she has
all that she is
she breaks wide open and offers it all
and there is a beautiful fragrance to her offering
Jesus recognizes the signficance of the fragrance
the others only recognize the cost
all the broken pieces of the jar of her heart
laid at his feet
at the feet of this man Jesus
her heart, not just part of it
but all of it, its entirety,
broken
emptied
and he honors her
all of her
and protects her

I love this man Jesus ...

Saturday March 7/20

our father .... father ....
so grateful I am to have a father who knows me,
calls me by name,
desires to simply be with me,
delights in me, in me ....
not what I do, or how I look
but in me ....the me of me ...
in all my imperfections ....
never asks me to be like someone else
amyone else
but loves me into being me ...
the person he dreamed into being

and how important it is then for me to discover me
for me to be me

to bring him pleasure
my father
my
father

what a privilege it is to be a daughter
of such a father

my father
in heaven
in me

Friday March 6/20

Mark 4:35-41 tells us the story of the storm, the wind, the waves, the boat, and the disciples ..
those men who had been walking, living, with Jesus ... those men who were being personally taught by the Son of God .... those men who 24/7 saw and heard and experienced and wondered ....

and here they are now ... these men who are fishermen by trade and so experienced on the water, near the waterm in the water ... and suddenly these men are frightened by a storm .... these men were in a situation they could not understand let alone control ..... they had Jesus with them!  in their boat! right in their boat!  and while they were panicking He was sleeping!   so they woke Him up .... thinking He did not know, did not care ... they thought they would going to die ... so thry woke Him up ..
but why?  what did they think He could do?   did they simply want Him to suffer in fear with them?  if they were going to die, did they want Jesus to die with them?  did thry just want to hear His voice one more time?  

They had no idea He had authority over the storm ... over the wind, over the waves ... over the sea ..
and they were stunned, awed to see that He did .....

and what storm do I need to bring before Jesus?  in what howling wind, what roaring sea do I need to hear His voice ?  

in what situation of my life do I need to recognize He is in it with me ..... and thus not be afraid ..

what do I expect Him to do?  what do I want, need, yearn for Him to do ???

how do I feel knowing He knows, but He sleeps ......

Wednesday March 4/20

our father
my father
father
abba
daddy
friend
protector
truth teller
life giver
in heaven
and in me ....
heaven in me ...
holy is your name
grant me this day
just enough daily bread
the bread of your presence
just enough for this day
forgive my sins
those things I do when I wish I would not do them
those things that hurt me
hurt you
and all those around me
forgive me for them
to the extent I forgive those who do similar things to me .
sins of words
sins of actions
sins of thought
keep me from temptation
the desire to sin yet again
the desire to want to be safe
the desire to want to be loved
steer me away from evil
the evil of my own heart
the evil of my shadow side
the evil of the twisted sister in me, of me
for yours is the kingdom
the power
the glory
your kingdom, power and glory is what this world needs to see
to hear
to feel
to live
forever
and ever
and ever
amen