the abyss

there was a moment
when the sacred fire of life engulfed me
and I dropped into a vast stillness
a pulsating silence
shattered
suspended
all while drowning
until finding a place of rest
discoveing I could breathe under water

I must learn how to live
in this new sacred emptiness

no where to hide
with the fabric of my life unravelled by radical sorrow
I could rage .... part of me really wanted to
or
I could turn, kneel and say yes
finding the breath of surrender
yielding to the pain of the suffering

grief has stripped me
naked, I am united with Love

this great loss has released a cry of  anguish
only Love can now fill the shattered container of my heart
and replenish this awful emptiness

come ......

just as I am Lord
in this season
in this moment
filled with a salty ocean of unshed years
filled with the weight of unasked questions
filled with broken pieces
and
filled with the wonder of You
of Your goodness
of Your strength
of Your mercy
of Your love
in the midst of the storm, the wind and the waves
I hear Your whisper
come
come
and I come
as I am
in the fullness, the reality of how I am 
I come
simply to be with You 
to sit with You
to draw near
and lay my head upon Your feet
to say 
thank You for choosing to love me

Lord, may Your whispered come fill us all
mayYour whispered come calm every storm
dry every tear
fill every empty place
mayYour whispered come birth hope
birth life
cause springs of fresh water to flow in arid places

Lord
I come

Lord
we come